Friday, March 31, 2017

Cymbolism 3

Painted on March 31
A free soul we are: 
random, free souls;
random, free souls, 
eager to explore; 
release, relax and reflect life as a whole,
sometimes bitter and sometimes extremely sweet, 
our teas and coffees be
the beauty is we choose to remain in-between. 

Roshan Pun; Exploring Self through Volunteering (Story of Transformation 29)

“Everyone asks me the same question these days”, growls Abhishek.
“What are you going to do in these three months?”
This is the question he is being forwarded since he recently completed his Secondary Education Examination (SEE).
Actually, it’s not just Abhishek who is being bothered with this question. All of his classmates are going through the same mode. As, I worked with them as their mentor as a’ Teach For Nepal’ fellow for some years, they were eager to know what I would suggest them on this regard.
Roshan Pun
But, I guess, I confused them more when I suggested them to explore themselves utilizing this time. I asked them if they actually know better about themselves and want to garnish their skills to reach the place of their dreams.
Here other questions arise.
“Do you actually want to be at that place where you are dreaming right now?”
“What kind of person are you?”
“What do you enjoy doing?” and several other introspective questions.
The answer is definitely difficult.
However, it’s important to get answered. Exploring our own self helps us to figure out who we are and what we really want out of our life. And I understand answering these questions is really vague for teen agers like them who are just stepping into the word outside of their school for the first time when even people like us, who have most probably contributed some years in our dream jobs are actually struggling.
I also understand introspection isn’t easy and mayn’t always work. So, we must get our hands dirty to explore our clear selves. Volunteering on different events could be one of those paths.
When I talk about volunteering, Roshan Pun, one of my mentees, comes in my mind. Pun is the high school graduate and has been working as a volunteer for different events since 2015.
Roshan in one of the sessions of MMCQ
Recently selected as a fellow of ‘NexGen Youth’, he also has been volunteering for the event called “Monday Morning Coffee Queries” (MMCQ), an event tailored for entrepreneurs, students and startups for last nine months.
One has to have a very strong motive and a huge dedication to work as a volunteer for such a long time.  Roshan explains, “I always had the feeling that my school curriculum couldn’t provide me the skills that I need in the labor market. I slacked on leadership skills. I also couldn’t express well. And my high school education also was focused only on the ground of knowledge, which would be of no use if I don’t have necessary skills to utilize them”.
Pun, first started his journey of volunteering from USEF Education Fair. “It was my first experience of managing something. I panicked at first, but gradually, I geared up. That slowly helped me to express myself even in the mass, which I had always feared of,” recalls Roshan. Since then, he has been actively volunteering for different events and he is happy to explore his avenues through them.
Roshan further shares, “Volunteering has brought lots of changes in me both, professionally and personally. I have a plan to start my own business in future and these events are helping me to find a good friend circle interested on the same. While on the other hand, I had always feared sharing my thoughts because of my introvert nature and I can feel myself transforming on this regard as well, though slow.”
Volunteering is not going to be easy but yes it’s definitely going to be worth it. Dedicating our time and effort as a volunteer seems like a hectic job but it can be done as youngster like Roshan are exploring themselves through it.  It’s a wonderful way to explore our self on the one hand while on the other it also helps in learning necessary life skills. Managing our time with that of the event’s time is really important when you are into volunteering and this is how I guess we also learn the time management skills indirectly, one of the important skills in any field we go.
Most of us tend to follow the crowd and do those stuffs that we aren’t particularly interested at and find us get lost somewhere. On this case, if we give ourselves sometime to ruminate and then find out what skills we actually want to polish on, we will definitely find other people or events that would be helpful for us and volunteering for them and with them would definitely be the first step to reach our goal. We just need the right attitude to join this process of self- exploration then where skills and knowledge will surely follow our path.

Thursday, March 30, 2017

Cymbolism 2

Painted on March 30
Let her swing
in her emotional string
Up in the gushing wind
she will find
the purpose of her life, 
and her reason to thrive. 

Monday, March 27, 2017

Cymbolism 1

Painted on 27th March, 2017
Ode to those encroached lips, 
Compassion for the vulnerabilities
One day they will be penalized
for the stolen strawberries. 

Wednesday, March 22, 2017

What if?

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I looked into his eyes, 
he looked into mine; 
Feelings were there 
deep enough to plunge. 
Ughh! we just stared blank
fearful of the depth.
We both returned.
Ahh! 
What if we had dared?

Tuesday, March 21, 2017

Underneath



Was it her body
or was it her soul
the question on her beauty
remained unresolved.
For those who touched her body
never reached her soul.
She knew they were just there for a moment
As the nights would pass and the sun would rise,
she, too would remove the mask of her disguise.
She would lay there on bed with all her imperfections,
while they would be howling about the mysteries she chose to reveal.
Poor them!
She was with them wearing a veil.

Tuesday, March 14, 2017

Graveyard

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The unbearable pain 
shall pass away.
This grey feelings
shall pass away.
Let me 
quote unquote
float unfloat
sink unsink
these bitter emotions. 
Mine purest soul will definitely find its way, 
when the tearful kairos shall pass away. 



Monday, March 6, 2017

Beautiful in her ways

Retrieved from Pinterest
She was beautiful in her own ways; thinly browed black medium eyes, chubby cheeks, circled nose and small full lips. Yeah! Beautiful in her own ways.  
Heartbroken several times, disrespected quite often and ignored frequently, she was beautiful in her own ways.
She had crumbled down by the majestic life. She had been kicked hard by the ugly fate. She had been punched and blown down by the colossal emptiness. Yet, she was beautiful in her own ways.
She was touched, yet untouched. She was loved, yet unloved. She was smiling, yet in tears. She was daring, yet feeble. She felt cared, yet uncared. She was social, yet lonely. She was kind, yet irritating. However, she was beautiful in her own ways.
She was desired, still undeserved.  She was taken, still unreceived. Despite that she was beautiful in her own ways.


Thursday, March 2, 2017

Let her go...

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Leaving her memories behind;
the pain, the sorrow 
and the emotions 
of her inanimate life,
she flew away
to her ecstatic journey
where no heartless hands would pluck her wings
where no merciless mind would question her being,
she flew away 
in a place of healing
where she would love and be loved.