Friday, May 29, 2015

An Incomplete Story

I was on my journey
half the way,
the tam poo was running on 
on its own pace and motion

Suddenly she jumped on it
without thinking of being hurt with it,
I, so cruel,
judged her ordeal
thought how carelessly she jumped
what would happen if we had bumped?

Just to get the seat?
I thought,
she would have waited little bit.
Thank God I was safe
I had a pride on my face.

The tam poo resumed on the motion
Now I had to get on
I turned towards the front
to ask the driver to hold on

Then, suddenly my eyes met on her again
this time I could see her pain
silver drops were rolling from her eyes,
which she was constantly trying to hide

As she noticed I was looking at her
she wiped her precious drops with her not so good wipers
I, then realized how foolish I was
to judge her, without knowing the cause
she had been in trouble
and, to know I even didn't take an interval,
to look into her eyes,
to analyze
the agony she wore it on

There I had to drop on
I was already on my destination
I reached safe
but this time I had a shame on my face

Wednesday, May 27, 2015

But Still..

I want to fly,
as you gave me the wings
I just want to sore up into the sky
till I find the red, hot sun
I know that it would melt me down
turn my soft rosy feathers into ashes,
the feather that are generated by your love
But,
still I want to feel
how it feels to be ached
what happens when the feathers fall down
slowly one by one
I have heard the story of Icarus and Daedalus
I know the sun will not leave me from its powerful grip
But,
still I want to go near him and shout
"Hey sun ! Look! Look! I am here just beside you."
then, I wouldn't mind plunging down into the deep ocean.
I dare to do this all.
Yes, I dare to do this all,
because I know your love will save me.
It will give me the fins to swim
just as it has given me the wings.

Love and light



If it was just love,
I would definitely hide
But when the love you
it automatically shows up with amuse
Just as the brightness can never hide from the light
love for you arouses with dignity and might. 

Tuesday, May 26, 2015

It's not enough


Recently I got an opportunity to participate in the psycho-social training provided by Israeli Trauma Centre, where we did so many interesting activities to take ourselves and other out of post-disaster trauma. Among so many important activities, one that made me occupied was being prepared for the next disaster.
Yes being prepared for something unpredictable is something weird. How can we exactly be prepared for the disaster? The question strikes. But the fact is it's true that no one can predict when disaster befalls but what we can do is that we can reduce the disaster risk. Reducing disaster risk is about reducing the underlying causes of risks which are closely related to vulnerability. For this we need to look at what is available and accessible to individuals, families and communities and building on those existing capacities, which can be done only through a sustained effort. This sustained effort can be termed as disaster-preparedness plan.
In the training, we made the plan for our family and the plan included various things like what materials we do need during emergencies, how we should start working as soon as it happens so that more life and property could be saved and many more. It took a lot of hours simply to brainstorm about it, but when it completed what I felt was that if only we would have researched about and thought about that before April 25, we could have reduced a lot of risks.
Then I thought why didn't we ever think about that?
I realized, this was our very first time when we had been exposed to this kind of disaster. That may be the reason we never thought in any part of our life we are going to face it.
Is that the same in case of our motherland? Is this the first time our country has faced this kind of disaster?
No, we have heard some awful stories from our grandparents. Then had our country got that disaster-preparedness plan?
Well, maybe it had but what we could see just after the 7.8 shook Nepal was a chaos, with lack of immediate management during emergencies and more than that the problem of distribution of relief materials. What we could hear was the shameless answer of our government bodies that no one can predict the disaster, so we are doing whatever we could do in our relief work. Here, I think I don't have to mention how unsatisfied were the people on the capability of our government on those relief works.
Though, we didn't know the exact date, what we already had the knowledge is that with its unique geo-physical settings and socio-economic conditions, Nepal is highly vulnerable to disasters. We are prone to disasters due to a number of factors, both natural and human-induced. On account of its multi-layered vulnerability Nepal has witnessed an increase in the frequency and intensity of disasters in the past.
Also the lack of management we got to see post the earthquake has raised the questions also on our Natural Disaster Relief Act, 1982, which got amended twice in 1989 and 1992.
Humanitarians point to a 2008 flood in the River Koshi, which killed several hundred and displaced nearly 60,000 families, as a turning point for Nepal's disaster mitigation and response work. The Koshi disaster inspired changes such as the Armed Police force establishing a disaster-training centre in 2011, the Nepal Police creating a disaster division in 2013, and the Nepal Army opening its disaster directorate in 2014. This also led to the preparation of a Disaster Management Bill but seven years on, the draft is still waiting untouched to be tabled in parliament.
Disaster data for the past three decades show the increasing disaster trends, both in the number of events and impacts. UNDP/BCPR study in 2004, ranked Nepal, in terms of relative vulnerability to earthquakes, as the eleventh most at risk country in the world, and thirtieth with respect to floods. Another report of World Bank classifies Nepal as one of the global 'hot-spots' for natural disasters.

In this context, proper plan on managing disasters requires a concerted as well as integrated national effort which needs to be coordinated well. Mentioning all this what I should not forget to mention is that may it the governmental or the non-governmental institution or the international bodies investments and efforts have been made by them for the disaster management due to which it's mechanisms have shown definitely some improvement in recent years. Here, the point is these investments and efforts aren't being effectively managed and with the latest chaos I can confidently say that whatever is done till now, it's not enough. 

Monday, May 25, 2015

The Last Sip

Yes, the feeling of being thirsty
"it's weird"
they said, "there are so many drinks
lined to quench your thirst,
the bottle is just an inch far
and you can choose any flavor from that bar."

As usual he looked at all those decked caskets,
those filled with some hard moving effects.
His hands touched all of them
slowly, one by one
some he had a close look
some he left just as they were.

Wrapped in those colorful eye catchers
he could have chose any one of them,
but they were surprised, he asked for an ordinary drink
yes, an ordinary drink;
a glass of lukewarm water,
a spoon of honey and some drops of lemon.

"Hey, are you out of your mind?" They said.
"Does that lemon have any intoxicating effect?"
He just smiled and drank
little by little.
He felt the sweet and sour effect so deep
and replied to himself,
"Yeah, this is what I was searching for so long.
How could they forget this is the one,
even they search when they are hanged on."

With a faint smile again,
he looked at the glass,
rose his toast
and drank the last sip.  

Sunday, May 24, 2015

Brain-teaser

Bold enough to tolerate my childishness,
avenger of my loneliness
rude! Oh! No, he is not.
understanding! Yes of course.
nothing shall be comparable to his love,
trusting him is what I can do with my eyes shut
already the king of my heart,
momentarily may be; with him, I can't depart
running, I go to him
anywhere either in the reality or let it be the dream
kindly he returns to where I am
as he too can't stay without holding my hand
Rumors about us are already on now.

Hint; They say he is the man of vow. 
Here is a brain-teaser for you.
Find out, Who is he?

Saturday, May 23, 2015

Nature's Glory

The fear of dying will die
when you simply roam in your garden and lie
Every plant has it's own story
Every flower has it's colorful glory
yet, they wither and then say good bye
Look! look! at the dews in the taro
they are there just for a moment of time
yet, they smile.
Have you seen them being fearful?
No, actually they make us cheerful
with their beauty
reminding us that everyone's life is short
let us utilize it utmost. 

The Butterfly Flight

He smashed me, thrashed me
and I shrunk
from never ever trying to get out of that trunk
inside the cocoon
I wanted to come out,
wanted to breathe fresh air and shout
but was afraid
that the society was made
of those clean sheaved goons
outside my white cocoon.

It may be the nature's rule
somehow it happened on schedule
I turned into an ugly caterpillar
and he took me as an object of thriller
he didn't know inside that ugliness
I had a big dream;
a dream to sore high
into the colorful blue sky
roam from flowers to flowers
sharing my arms with those wonderful birds
smelling the most poignant bushes and bunch.

He again tried to smash me, thrash me.
He tried to kill me before I fly
smashing my little ugly slithering body
but this time he didn't know
I had already grown
with a weapon in my small spikes
that pierced him and he turned black and blue.
He didn't know how wonderful it felt deep inside
to make him scratch himself and have a deep cry.

Then I flew
when the waves of mild wind blew
turning my spikes into wings
ugliness into strings.
I am the rainbow
as I can smile the colors
and make people shy
for my transform
from that ugliness into beauty
even the beauty queens envy
and say "I want to be like her, like the beautiful butterfly."

Friday, May 22, 2015

The significance of education in my life; promoting gender equality and empowering women


Young Journalists & Writers: The significance of education in my life; promotin...I was three years old when a serious discussion took birth in my house; should I get a chance to go to school or not? This may be a simple question for most of the families when a child becomes the age to go to school but genuinely this was serious in my case as at the very moment my parents were not in the condition to afford the extra income for my school expenditure. But thanks to my mom dad who finally decided
to work some extra hours for my education. Finally I was at school and since then neither my parents nor me had taken a second thought about not continuing it.
In my society, where most of the people don't hesitate to mock the value of education by comparing it with the size of an elephant saying, "has the elephant grown big by getting education or has the ant become small by not getting education?" it is very difficult to discover the significance of education in a person's life as the significance is intrinsic.
For me the significance of education doesn't lie in being a scientist one day or achieving the distinction marks in my academic exams; similarly it's also not the means of earning money for me.
Instead for me, education is the constant encouragement through which I get confidence to do any of my work. I get a hope in my life whenever I am in any problem; the problem may be personal or social but it's the power of education that shows me the path to move on in the way of solving it. If I hadn't been educated I would have run away from the complexities of my life but I never do that as I have the strength of tolerance; which of course from the blessing of education.
Education has not only made me efficient in whatever I do, but it has also made me complete. I am who I am today simply because of education. It has given me a name, an identity in the male dominated society which I think I would overlook as other female members of my society if I hadn't been educated. By reading the biography of the most influential person, I get inspiration to go far beyond in my life. By observing the society I get an integrated understanding of life which I bet I would never ever be able to observe if education hadn't worked as my third eye. I am
transforming and with me the society is transforming. I am being inspired and with me the whole society is being inspired. I am learning and with me the whole society is learning. Every change is being possible because I am educated and with my education I am educating others.
Today I dream because I know that I have the potential to fulfill my dream. I dream of a beautiful life, a beautiful society and a beautiful world where no one is deprived of going to school. I work as an education activist with the aim that one day I would with the joint effort of others would make our place educated and integrated. Thanks to education that I have a dream as there are many other people who are fearful of having a dream as they can't dare to fulfill it.  Education has given me the power to dream and the strength to fulfill my dream.
My parents opted to provide me education then and now I want other parents to choose the same path. I want others to walk through the same path that education has provided me as I know though there are challenges; the path is safe to move. Education has made me kind enough to understand other's problems and help them. It has inculcated the behavior of sharing in me so that I desire to share whatever I have learnt with others. I must say education has given me the wings, which I can flap and fly higher and higher to reach my destination, my dream of changing the family, changing the society, changing the nation and changing the whole world. I am me, an independent person and no other can take over the credit of giving me this feeling of independence other than education. I have a meaningful life, a significant life just because of the education.
Unfortunately, there are several children who are deprived from leading the meaningful life. There are context and cultures due to which many children can't go to school, especially the girls. That's why now as education has made me capable enough to raise my voice for them, I would work for them. What is the significance of learning in our life if we don't use itfor the betterment of every one? It's easy to mock others but difficult to prove. I am the one who has the dream to prove the significance of what education has given me after all this power to prove is also given to me by education. 

Tuesday, May 19, 2015

A Rise to Life (Story of Transformation 7) Photo Story

It has already been weeks after the disaster. Heard from the aged people, that they had never ever felt such tremor in their lives before. It makes us realize how huge was the disaster. 7.8 earthquake took the lives of thousands of our people, destroyed hundreds of our historical monuments, collapsed our skyscrapers, even smashed our dreams. Amid all these, what I have now become thankful is it has made me understand how beautiful our life is and how precious it is. Yes, we faced the tragedy, but this gave us a meaning into our lives for those who survived.
The disaster helped me to deconstruct the meaning of Suzanne Weyn's quote, "Your life is an occasion. Rise to it." 
April 25, 11.56 pm, I was on my bed,
too ill to wake up, and then the my bed started to dance.
 Cries of people woke me up, but I was unable to react.
My name was being called frequently, then finally I moved outside.
The houses around my place were safe, except this wall,
 so I felt the quake was just the normal one.
I called my parents, they were safe.

Everyone was on streets, chaos was all around. 
I, too was roaming on the streets and found this hungry dog,
helped him with some biscuits. 

The backyard of one of my friends house,
where I along with some other friends
and his family stayed overnight. 
April 26; Heard that one of our fellows of 2nd cohort,
Sujita Chaudhary is no more with us.
Though I had never been close to her, this news made me cry.

April 27; I was still not being able to get out from the tragedy,
then 'Moomin' helped me a lot to forget it with his playful nature.

Spent the day on gardening; notice this rosebud and
 realized the beauty of nature that how
it can give a ray of hope even on destruction.

April 28; early in the morning went to the garden and
was happy to see the petals of rosebud opening.
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April 29; the rose was smiling more today,
it was arousing more hope on me and
helping me to be more positive and brave.
Decided to go to Chapagaun and meet my students 
but as there were no vehicles running, it was being difficult. 
And he helped me out reach there.

Three rooms of the school was damaged. Met some students
after a long time and was happy to talk to them.
Some of their houses were cracked.

April 30; Oh, the rose is on full bloom today. Loads of happiness. 
Went to Basantapur Durbar Square Area and helped there in the works around there.

May 1: Went to the cafe that we used to go regularly,
found that the shelter of this family is safe.

Work at Basantapur continued and the happy moment was
to see so many youths being involved.

May 2 : Followed the same routine

May 3; The work continued, but had to leave
after some injury on my hand.


May 4; started working of fund and relief collection
for 'Rebuild our Communities' campaign


May 5; remembered Sujita, letf me in a dilemma about life.
May 6; Still working for the campaign.

May 7; Some difficult feelings aroused, started to think about children,
about how to make students feel better.
 Realized I need to be happy and hopeful myself first.

May 8; Wanted to visit, so set out for a walk and
 realized that there is still some beauty left there.
May 9,10 and 11; Loved the mother nature, her rules, her love, her fury and her beauty.
Started to think positive and work for better.

May 12; Was in a restaurant when we were hit by another
 big earthquake of 7.4 but this time,
it shook me less as I had already gone through
 all these phases of being scared, being frustrated,
being  hopeful and being brave enough to handle the trauma. 
This devastation made me realize, life is beautiful;
one day, one hour, one minute, it'll not come again,
so we need to avoid fight, avoid anger, speak lovingly and spread our smile.

There is still hope and strength left inside us for the better transformation. 

At this moment when I don't have much words to describe how am I feeling, I just want to borrow the words of Martin Luther King Jr, "As my sufferings mounted I soon realized that there were two ways in which I could respond to my situation-- either to react with bitterness or seek to transform the suffering into creative force. I decided to follow the latter course." Thank you everyone who helped me in this transformation of body, mind and soul. Hope you too have gone through the same phases of transformation. In this phase what we must not forget is 'we are alive for a reason'. Let's find out that reason and I am sure though the reason may be different for all of us, the reason is good. 


Sunday, May 17, 2015

Beauty of flowers

Small petals,
small are the stems;
though small the flowers,
the honeybee sees.
I guess it must be it's fragrance
that helps them find their place.
I wonder,
do the flowers too wait for them?
Wait for the bees,
messaging them with their sweet smell.
May be they do
or, they don't 
but the beauty is 
flowers never stop
smiling wide open
in the sun;
sharing their nectar 
I guess they know
their nectar turns 
into honey and
it's sweetness cures even the sun burns. 

Thursday, May 14, 2015

The smiles

Let me forget these tremors for sometime
Let me smile for a while
I know, we all are shaken
I know, our hearts are broken
But let's just try
I as sure there may be someone
who will forget the problem
with your smile
with my smile

Tuesday, May 12, 2015

Out of the blue X

We are just like the bud of this rose
but, I promise you, we have a growth. 
Our love will blossom surely
with a beauty and a wonderful story.

Monday, May 11, 2015

Out of the blue IX

Not for your body
Not for your face
I have been falling for you
for your beautiful grace

There is a light inside you
that always guides you
I honor your selfless love
your sense of respect on my stuffs

The day, we first met
wasn't as great as the days then went
seconds, minutes and hours are running so fast
making me more hopeful that our relation will last
till the eternity
more strong and more romantic

Saturday, May 9, 2015

Rebuilding our children's dream


7.8 rector scale earthquake that shook Nepal on 25th April left Samikshya Dhungel, a Teach For Nepal Fellow in agony. Dhungel dedicated her one year teaching at a public school of Sangha Chowk, Sindhupalchowk and had just geared up for her second year when the disaster befell and took her 37 kids. Her grief has been hammered more with the sorrowful question of one of her kids "are we going to read this year miss?" "What about our school?" These questions haven't let her go anywhere with peacefulness even after weeks of disaster. Dhungel with a heavy heart shares "Kids are eager to learn and they want to move on from this fear of tremor but 70% of the school buildings of Sindhupalchowk have collapsed and the temporary alternatives hasn't been thought of yet about where children are going to be taught."
It's a high time we need to think the answer of Dhungel's child as he is just an example figure. There are thousands of kids who have the same question on their minds and there are thousands of teachers and guardians like Dhungel who are undergoing the same thought process. According to United Nations Office for the Coordination of Humanitarian Affairs Asia and the Pacific, UNOCHA more than 16,000 public and phalrivate schools - about half of the country's total - have been damaged. Though the extent of damage is still being assessed, the initial reports indicate huge proportion of school facilities have been totally destroyed or severely damaged due to the earthquake. In this context, children may not take going to school normally. But, it's very important to create the environment for them to go to school and make them feel school as a safe space to make them recover gradually from the terrible trauma.
We were thankful that the earthquake happened on Saturday when schools were closed as the National Society for Earthquake Technology-Nepal (NSET) in 1998-99 evaluated the risk to schools in Kathmandu Valley. It predicted that if an earthquake happened during school hours that 29,000 students, teachers and staffs would be killed and 43,000 seriously injured. Though we were lucky that the visible physical injury of children may be less than predicted, there can be nonetheless an emotional toll.
Psychiatrists say that the children are the most affected by the aftershocks and would need extra attention and medical care as the disaster can lead to post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). Children exposed to multiple disasters experience particularly high rates of both depression and post-traumatic stress symptoms. One study of Sri Lankan children exposed to both an ongoing civil war and the 2004 tsunami found that 40 percent of children experienced PTSD
Regarding this alarm, the communities to which children return and the community services that families with children rely on play important roles in fostering children's recovery. Resuming usual routines of school and play activities was associated with more positive adjustment among the children exposed to traumatic war experiences in Sierra Leone as well as for children who experienced Hurricane Katrina.
Children make up half of Nepal's population. At least 940,000 children are affected by the earthquake and the number is increasing. It's vital that Nepal's children go back to school. Besides fulfilling the psychological needs, records too show that out-of-school children are at greater risk of violence, rape and recruitment into fighting, prostitution, and other life-threatening, often criminal, activities. Many will simply never return to the classroom. Many could fall into child labor, child marriage and sexual exploitation.
It's true that when families are compelled to survive open under the sky with no food and shelter, definitely, education wouldn't be their priority but along with the urgent needs, resuming the schools early should also be in the priorities. It's time to think about rebuilding our schools. Rebuilding takes time but till then at least let us find some alternative solutions where children could find a safe place for them to learn and enjoy their childhood. Let's be together for not letting the tremors shake our children's joy. Let's rebuild our schools. Rebuilding schools means rebuilding the children's dream.

Published on the website of A World at School, http://www.aworldatschool.org/global-youth-ambassadors/entry/after-nepal-earthquake-we-must-rebuild-childrens-dreams-1944

Published on Republica http://myrepublica.com/lifestyle/item/21372-my-voice-rebuilding-our-children-s-dream.html