Cupid then and now

THEN

It seems just a few days ago,

she was on my dreams oh! oh! oh!

Her breath taking eyes,

which if accidentally collided with mine 

I used to feel

as if the world is under my heels

Her laughter

on her friend's chatter 

would kill me,

as if I am cut by a sharp knife

"Yes, she is my life"

I used to say inside.

But, never being able to express

also not being able to suppress

those feelings would just burst out

and my pals would shout,

I still remember them teasing

turning me black and blue

but I just lied silent as I was afraid

what she would do.

NOW,

I see her eyes still beautiful

but has no effect on mine

I ask myself

How did I fall for it then?

Now when she laughs

even on my talk

I don't get stuck

She is still the same.

"No, no quite thinner then"

I judge her

but my friends ungrave my heart

they have a new joke to start

And this time I convince

with smile

I am single and I can't do anything

as she has husband on her side.